sun behind the cloud

the past was happy

yet the future is blurry

are you there for inquiry

don't tell me that I am unique

cause I want my life easy

trapped in doubts

n now I can't see

you can't deal with uncertainty

n neither can i

without thee

there is only insecurity

2 weird dreams lately

1. I was watching something from a screen. On the screen it was the area in SH where I lived. Suddenly a tornado came. Instead of going vertical, it is coming horizontal. Instead calling a tornado, I called it black hole in the dream. Then the screen zoned in to the window of our apartment, n I could see my parents standing at the window looking nervously. Sou... the buildings were gone, into the tornado or black hole. Wtever.

I picked up the phone n dialed the number. As usually, mom picked up the phone. I told her that I saw that our building was sucked into the hole. She said yes, and said that last year, the people who sucked into the hole never came out again. Then she asked me if I still need money in Switzerland...

Yes, she always does that. Every time I talk to her. When in high school, she always blame me for spending too much. Now she's "blaming" me for spending too little. I miss her.

2. I don't remember what it is about. But just I had this strange haircut in the dream. I sort of shaved my hair in the middle maybe months ago in the dream, or rather lost my hair. From front to the back, no hair for around 4 cm. But very little hair had grown, so it was all fluffy now in the dream. The rest of the hair is the same as I have now, almost reaching the shoulder.

Now WHAT DOES THIS MEAN????!!